I have had one of the worst days. My allergies are exacerbated by horrible winds. There’s a lot of unbelievable stress. We’re supposed to close on our new home in 2 days. There are so many little problems and issues cropping up that it seems almost impossible. Packing is slow going. I managed to be in hot water with my mother, my sister and my spouse by day’s end (all separate issues, believe it or not!) My dogs have been ill behaved and obnoxious (and one of my children too!)
It’s one of those days that I feel like I’m not just treading hot water, but boiling water. It’s days like these that make it feel impossible that tomorrow will be better. I don’t want a clean slate tomorrow. I want a clean slate today. I’d like to go back in time and do today over again (maybe this time I wouldn’t get out of bed!) However, I know that if I went back and lived each day over again until I got it right, my life would look like a bad remake of Groundhog Day. Part of me thinks instead of do overs, maybe I need clones (one of me could smooth things over with my sis while another deals with my naughty dogs, and yet another could pack!) More of me though, would probably mean more trouble.
I think I’d actually like to go to sleep and wake up significantly more sanctified. Hopefully that's why days like these exist.